The Desire to be Better

Have you ever wondered what it would take for you to finally change? To finally be the person God designed for you to be. I know I have been. I am currently there.

Hello, 2018! Hello everyone who was blessed to see this year! Looking back on 2017, I know these tumultuous events rocked the world to its core: wildfires, tsunamis, earthquakes, militias, protests, and more. Our eyes grow wide watching the goodness in the world wane, as evil takes the center stage. How ominous! Hanging over us, a dark cloud expands over us creating an almost terrifying atmosphere. Yet fear not, Jesus Christ, our Savior has prophesized the earth will get worst.

For it is written, “Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains.” (Matthew 24:4-8)

See! Jesus’s warnings are affirmed by today’s events. Jesus, before He was crucified, admitted these things to His disciples so He may encourage us to stay the course in the future. This word was not only for the chosen twelve but a warning for us to the future. We’re given an immovable peace because we know this world will pass away. But what is more compelling is many Christians have become stagnant. We’re not living, dare I say it, our best lives! The Christian life God ordained for each of us to live out here on Earth.

So many Christians are not living out their God-given destinies and I am included. I know 2016 broke me, but it was 2017, this past jaw-dropping year, which revealed to me the contents of my character. James Lane Allen an American novelist, and short story writer born in the 20th century spoke a compelling quote.

“Adversity does not build character, it reveals it.”

I believe this and something else. It is within our circumstances, we depend on the power of the Holy Spirit, and these very conditions God utilizes to build us up. No one grows stronger if comfortable, it is uncomfortable or unpleasant situations propelling us to overcome immature habits and sinful pleasures. As well, I wholeheartedly agree adversity reveals who we are on the inside. On the inside of my person, I saw I was absolutely nothing without Jesus Christ. I was a whirlwind. Emotionally and mentally unstable, I was making wild and impulsive decisions with my time and effort. Mismanaging money, feeling insignificant and discouraged.

24 “The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by human hands. 25 And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything. Rather, he himself gives everyone life and breath and everything else. 26 From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands.” (Acts 17:24-27)

The Lord God does not need us. He made us of course for His special purposes and reasons. Our Mighty Father abides not in man-made structures, daily God breathes life into us so we can accomplish the work He has appointed us to do. Through numerous obstacles, and my continuous round of foolishness, I came to the realization I cannot do life without Christ. Life is too much for me. I need the comfort of the Holy Spirit. I need prayer to guide my walk, and I learn to yearn for the fellowship and company of other believers, not just my own.

Adversity too showed me the extent of my wickedness, and then some.

Selfish. Self Seeking. Lustful. Slanderer. These are words I’d describe myself in 2017 and more unappealing words for today. The old sin nature riots daily. Charging around, searching for a moment when I let my guard down. I knew in my heart at the end of 2017 I could do so much better and I desperately want to be better. I have been blessed with so much, and yet I put forth so little effort. God, I realized did not require anything of me, except for my obedience. I noticed I’d sacrifice my time, effort, resources, money, music for God’s pleasures, but if He asked me to obey and surrender a part of my life. I have been holding back then I am defiant. Defiance is disobedience.

So, without a doubt, I have a desire to be better. To be better in my spiritual life, the way I treat people, believers, and nonbelievers. I desire to be better for myself. However, fears crowd my mind, for what God asks me to do requires for me to trust and obey. Such a command is a personal struggle. Yet 2017 convicts me, and I believe Jesus Christ is worth it. I believe I am an overcomer for Jesus has conquered all things and dwells within you and me.

I desire to chronicle the changes I shall experience in 2018: the good, bad, and the unexpected. I know I have been back and forth with blogging, but thank be to God–I now know I do not need anyone’s approval but His. Jesus Christ is my validation. He whom loves you and I so dearly, affirms our existence, and purpose. When I was younger my heart always despised the serenity prayer, there was something about humbly accepting the circumstances of life which irked me. But it is the call to courage driving me insane! The courage to change what needs to be changed, taking the initiative to obey what God has commanded. Now I embrace the power for it is the remedy for my situation.

First asking God to help me accept the things I cannot change. I cannot change where or who I was born to or the way I look. I cannot act like another woman for that would be inauthentic. Second being of good courage and move in faith. Start changing the things God has told me, trusting He will take care of the details. Third applying the wisdom over the years, to not confuse the two.

Oh, Beloved let us desire to be better and recognize our main motivation is to realize our part in God’s will. We have a role to play, and if we are willing to obey, then the Lord God will see to its completion.

Copyright © 2018 by A Meeting at the Well


2 Comments Add yours

  1. Dawn Marie says:

    Good morning,
    My name is Dawn & I love your posts. I followed you on Instagram, which I no longer take part in, but I’m so glad I am able to receive these emails from you! I have ZERO support in my life, and I desperately need some kind of confirmation that I am heading in the right direction!
    I know God guides me, but He also says that I need other believers to help me, that’s where your blogs & posts come in! I truly know how you feel, and amazingly every time you post, I can totally relate! Keep doing what you are doing, I NEED YOU & YOU NEED ME! Iron sharpens iron; Psalm 27:17
    God loves you & so do I , God bless
    Miss Dawn Marie (@U Love 2 Hate Me )


    1. Oh wow! It is amazing hearing your journey with me and the instagram page. It is saddening to hear you have zero support in your life. I encourage you to pray and reach out to godly people, if you know of any. Thank you so much for your feedback and encouragment. WE are in this together. We need each other and I pray God blesses you this year!


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