As of lately, I have been waiting on an answer from the Lord. I know the Word of God gives us all the answers to each situation we are in. God’s Word is perfect and His Word reflects His amazing goodness. Being the Holy and loving God He is, the Lord did not leave us on Earth as orphans, instead He gave us an instruction manual to live by.
However, I like many of my brothers and sisters, desire for God to give confirmation about various situations we encounter. I am a teacher at a middle school. The school’s reputation is a mess and though I tried to ignore the fighting, not allow the micro managing of the administration wear me down, and various other dilemnas an opportunity has presented itself for me to leave the school.
Sadly it is halfway in the year. February is the month before testing and if you’re a parent or educator, then you know the NWEA and M-Step tests approaches.
I have mostly negative thoughts regarding the absurd amount of testing we put our students through, but the question remains: Lord do you want me to leave? I love my students. At the beginning of the school year, September and October the cup of negativity overflowed, overwhelming the culture and climate at school. Students scheduled fights in the bathroom, on social media, and teachers were leaving left and right.
I lost a few good colleagues. I stayed because I loved my students. I never thought I could love my 6th graders so dearly, yet their tiny sweet faces grew on me. Of course, not every class I teach is perfect, but they’re so eager to learn, please, and want to show their independent.
At the same time, I have to do what is best for me. This school’s system is overbearing, condescending, and dark. I am not naive. There is no such thing as a perfect school; the grass is never greener on the other side, all grass looks the same at night. I know if I leave for another school I then I only exchange my problems. I pray God will reveal to me what He wants me to do, because at the end of the day, to God be the glory. Always remember my friends,
Only what you do for Christ will last
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